owl hootings

nonono

2007-10-24T18:00:00.000+01:00

shit.
no.
i can't.
dammit.

disappointing.

2007-08-18T14:42:00.003+01:00

today i waited.
waited for what?
a simple something.
but did i get anything?
nope.

i dont know why i bother.
no one can ride a seesaw alone.
and right now im all alone in the playground,
all i want to do is ride the seesaw.
that's all.
but whatever.
who cares right?
i give up.

anyway.
stalker guy is still messaging, still calling.
im just wondering when he'll actually stop.
but i do have to say one thing,
persistence really pays off.
the more he calls,
(and the more bored i get)
the more i want to reply or pick up.
to be honest,
he's probably caring most of all (not including family),
this isn't good.
i think one day i'll just reply,
im thinking a couple days before i leave so i wont have to deal with him for too long.

the way things are going now,
i cant wait.
but i know there still are some.
and i'm lucky for the few.
but many other fews...
whatever.

2007-08-18T05:13:00.000+01:00

there's always a yes in a no.

2007-08-13T13:49:00.000+01:00

went to the hospice today and had team building sesh
we played "cross the amazon river"
where we had to hold hands and step on pieces of paper (rocks).
only catch is once the "rock"is activated there must be constant pressure if not than the rock will sink.
it's just one of those 'work as a team and communicate effectively' activities...
but then i realised that i won't play any of those games ever again,
at least never the same as the ones we played during mg camps. =(
i miss camps so much.
the games,
the "who can sleep the least" nights,
the lectures,
the cordial,
the food,
the tshirts,
the worship,
the lovely cold cold showers late at night,
the stank of our "sleeping quarters"
the fun,
the friends.

2007-08-10T15:22:00.001+01:00

HAHAHAHA

STALKER GUY JUST ASKED ME OUT.

well me and nigel cos he has both our numbers and doesn't know who's who.

who in their right mind would ask out a person through sms and send it to 2 unknown numbers?

man when i said i needed drama,

i didn't expect THIS kind of drama!

i finally have a summer story!

hahaha

this is pure classic.

2007-08-10T12:18:00.009+01:00

im tired and aching.
but a price that's well worth every single cent.
=]
freaky stalker guy keeps calling.
but smart nigel and stef aren't picking up.
hahahhaha.
this is so funny.
don't worry.
he's blocked and won't know he is less he finds this blog.
then im screwed.
but oh well.
i shall cross the bridge when i meet it.

regret?

2007-07-31T15:12:00.008+01:00

it wasn't love from the start and i knew it
and that's the only beginning of the uncertainty.
im thinking i made a mistake,
a very permanent potentially big mistake.
bullocks.

i had a dream about today

2007-07-21T04:31:00.000+01:00

i had a mission.

i had to attack teachers who were apparently keeping us hostage.

so armed with a water gun and one real gun, (don't ask)

i attacked the first class successfully.

then i went into the next class and the jap guy from heroes was the teacher.

no idea what was being taught but i saw a whole bumch of ex mg girls..haha

so then when i attacked this class' teachers i ran out of real bullets so i was on the run.

he was chasing me and i had no protection.

i grabbed a long stick, broke it in two and started using it to help me run round the steep turns marked out by trees and barb wire fences.

then i made it to the security guard box (they were good) and asked them for help.

cars drove up and the jap guy was hiding on the back of a van.

the guards tried to fight them off but they only had those batons.

so they died.

i was circled by a group of guys who started to beat me up and i just curled up into a ball and blanked out.

next thing i know, i had a broken nose, a forefinger that was splitting open without a nail and bruises all over.

i was in my old house and was talking friendly to the jap guy and it seemed like he was my brother...

and then a whole bunch of friends came in and asked about my injuries.

i told them "he did it."

and he got upset that i brought it up and 'ratted him out'.

he thought i had gotten over it.

so then i showed them a video of me getting beaten up. (strange cos i could actually see everything like i was actually watching a video)

my mum then called us to go for dinner and it was about 5 plus 6 in the evening.

i realised i missed meeting jemma for badminton.

so with my broken nose i called her to explain and say sorry.

then i went to mg for the musical and saw pple and i cant really remember what happened after that

all i remember is seeing the stage and the musical had already started but the audience wasnt quietly watching.

then it skips to me in my bathroom with a friend when acid rain started to destroy the blind.

so we ran out and started getting attacked.

okay now its getting fuzzy but it ended up in me my friend her mum my mum running out to the cars trying to get away.

i think i had to go to the plastic surgeon to fix my nose or something like that.

doesnt sound very exciting but i could feel the pain and the fear.

amazing what your brain can do when youre asleep huh? hahaha

anyway i just wanted to record this dream down so i can remember its strangeness.

2007-07-20T18:24:00.000+01:00

they grow up so fast...

The Forbidden Fruit Effect

2007-07-19T17:49:00.000+01:00

the more you can't have something, the more you want it.

(no sexual connotations intended.)

clammy

2007-07-14T17:55:00.000+01:00

i was told i'm like a clam
and that i need to open up more.
it's not the first time i've been told this.
it's just not that easy for me
i create a great facade
a facade that is usually unbreakable unless i choose to crack it,
slightly..
but if someone else starts to crack it for me,
i tense up,
shut down
and shut out.
i pushed too many people away
created too many complications.
it just wasn't right.
i was so confused
it was easier to just ignore.
but ignoring just made it worse.
and that's what i do best,
i ignore.
i don't face things,
i just wait for them to blow over.
and a gale may be blowing on the other side
but because i never resolved it,
everything just starts to build up on top of me.
so as i get crushed,
my defense system retaliates and tries to protect me
putting up a layer after another layer
until i become..
a clam.

but remember,
open clams get eaten.

2007-07-14T11:18:00.000+01:00

i finally understand what culture shock means.

SOS

2007-07-07T09:45:00.000+01:00

well it's the summer(not like we have any other seasons but follow my point)
immediately you think,
SUMMER BREAK.
PARTIES.
FUN.

but nooooo, all you pple have school.
sigh.
and many have heard my rants already,
and yet still no solutions or escapes.
disappointment much.

so this is an outright plea for schoolgoers(that i know) to drop your books and TAKE ME OUT.
hahaha. yes. laugh at my desperation.
but as you laugh,
pity the desperation as well.

do host house parties.
and do invite me.
please? hahaha

al..most...there...

2007-06-16T13:06:00.000+01:00

i dont know why, but the whole blogger website is in chinese.
and of course i dont know enough chinese to find the language settings;
and besides, who can be bothered. hahaha

well ive had exams for three very very long weeks and heck i think i deserve a medal for not shaving my head and going crazy.
i feeeeeel that i didnt really take these exams very seriously.
besides biology, i basically crammed the night before.
so during the hectic week with 3 science papers separated by maths papers, i was just going non-stop like a duracell bunny.
lets just hope i actually pulled it off.

so my last paper is in 5 days and during my revision time im forced to think about where to apply, admission tests i have to take, what i want to do, i have to write my personal statements, my essays, my roas...and probably more.
quite a bit huh.
so as im trying to swim to the surface through the pool of exams, im being pummelled by university things.
what a life.

tethers are breaking and the only thing saving me is exercise.
i dont know what ill be without exercise.
so my last words?

love those endorphins

helpless

2007-05-19T21:44:00.000+01:00

i hate feeling like this.
that i can't do anything.
that my hands have been tied and chopped off along with my legs.
i want to be told.
i want to be there.
i want to help.
but no one's letting me.
no one's letting me show my care.
my concern.
everyhing's always "just fine"
but nothing's ever really fine.
and no one seems to notice that i want to try to make things better.

but let's face it,
pple will always be "just fine"
pple will always "not want to talk about it"
pple are just being pple.

=(

2007-05-11T13:19:00.001+01:00

i'm ill and unexercised.

i'm ill thus unexercised.

sigh

2007-05-06T16:13:00.000+01:00

it's short leave and i'm meant to be studying.
but i'm not clearly.
but in my defence, i did do equivalent to 5 papers.
all was going well till i couldnt resist the temptation of the computer any longer.
i don't really have a lot to say now but here's a slight update:
-screwed for bio
-got into the tennis squad. =D
-screwed for bio
-having withdrawel symptoms from tennis and my guitar
-still screwed for bio
-AS's in 2 weeks. (!!!)

man i think my blog's either really dead and im just talking to myself,
or pple just dont tag anymore.hahha (a hint so big you can't see it's feet)

i can see how facebook can get addictive.

i just found out that i may not be able to do my SATs in time...that's very very bad.considering the date that i have to do it will be 2 days before my wretched week of AS's.

yobat nawi

yup

2007-04-21T17:00:00.000+01:00

depressed
just had tennis trials today.
and i think i can safely say i blew my chances well away to the south pole.
dejected
things just haven't been going the way i planned a month ago.
but i know i really should "always look on the bright side of life"..
tired
but sometimes it's just so hard.
mocks are a total failure on my part.
exhausted
and i still have 5 more papers to go...
excluding the number of modules in each paper.
jetlagged
slept at 1130pm the first night, woke up at 1, woke up every 20 mins,
got out of bed at 430am, studied.
c'est la vie
my new favourite phrase.

how long?

2007-04-09T17:00:00.000+01:00

everyone who plays tennis
will tell you that the secret to an ideal shot
is to keep the racket on the ball for as long as possible.
many pull up too soon.
many don't give enough time for the ideal hit,
no matter how much they want to play perfectly.
but then again,
you can only keep the racket on the ball for so long.
after that,
there wouldn't be any point to hold it out there,
once the ball has left the racket,
flying towards your opponent.
so instead of looking like a doofus with your hand stretched out,
you pull up,
finishing the stroke.

2007-04-08T11:05:00.000+01:00

For all the guys out there.
wise words.hahaha

How To Touch A Girl by JoJo

1..2..3..4..

Ohhh...

I think I could like you
Already do
Feelings can grow but
They can go away too
You're takin my hand
Lookin into my eyes
Don't be in a rush to
Get me tonight

I feel something happening
Could this be a spark?
To satisfy me baby
Gotta satisfy my heart

Do you know how to touch a girl?
If you want me so much
First I have to know
Are you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what's on my mind?
Or am I just for show?
You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl

Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?
Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?

I think I could like you
But I keep holding back
Cause I can't seem to tell
If you're fiction or fact
Show me you can laugh
Show me you can cry
Show me who you really are
Deep down inside

Do you feel somethin happenin?
Could this be for real?
I don't know right now but tonight we'll reveal

Do you know how to touch a girl?
If you want me so much
First I have to know
Are you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what's on my mind?
Or am I just for show?
You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl

Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?
Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?

Bring me some flowers
Conversation for hours
To see if we really connect
And baby if we do
Ooh I'll be givin all my love to you
Ohh

Do you know how to touch a girl?
If you want me so much
First I have to know
Are you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what's on my mind?
Or am I just for show?
You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl

Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl? (Yeah, yeah)
Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?

You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl

dreams

2007-04-07T16:35:00.000+01:00

dreams are just dreams i guess.
they're like feathers.
they're as light as them.
they fly away with a little blow of air.
you try to catch them,
you try to keep them,
you try to treasure them.
you think you have it,
that it's secure.
but a moment later it's gone.
nothing lasts forever.
everything withers away with time.
you've got to sieze the moment to behold the moment.
and i'm gonna just keep on dreaming.

2007-03-31T16:25:00.000+01:00

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'nuff said.

soon, soon

2007-03-17T13:35:00.000Z

another term is coming to a close and packing up is such a fag. but oh well.
after term ends im gonna be in london for 3 days and hopefully i can watch equus the play.
its bout a horse god and daniel radcliffe goes stark for it.hahahha yes. it shall be reallly interesting.
after that i've got d of e. which is basically a 4 day hike in the mountains.
we're gonna have to do everything all by ourselves, cook, put up tents. i guess its like mobile obs.
and seeing as i did residential...this could serve to be quite a problem.haha. but i really hope itll be fun.

and after that, im coming home!!!wooooh. havent wanted to go home this bad yet.
here's my itinerary when i get back:
study
catch up
tennis
work experience
study
tennis
catch up
study

im gonna try to play tennis at least twice a week. so here's an open offer to ANYONE who has time to play a little tennis with me. =] please? i just HAVE to play alot. im on a little tennis craze.
and i have to study so much since i have mocks the first day i get back for summer term. how nice is that?ugh

msn works.

not again

2007-02-23T10:48:00.000Z

waiting for the day they feel good
yes. it happened yet again.
and it seems that the casting of the victim never changes.
look right through me look right through me
what is wrong?
innocence.
going nowhere going nowhere
if you save a scorpion, there's nothing holding it back from stinging the hand it's on.
but yet you don't curse and smash it to pieces.
no expression no expression
you still disentangle it from the mess it got into.
you don't run away from it.
no one knew me no one knew me
you get closer and hope it trusts you enough to allow you to help.
and you pray it doesn't sting you again.
i find it kinda funny i find it kinda sad

Sand-witches

2007-02-03T12:16:00.000Z

“where?”
“right there.”
“what? where?”
“just there.
it’s not that hard to find.”

“no, not here,
there.”
“scoot a bit to your left,
nope too much,
you’re gonna have to move back a bit.”
“hey shove off. your jacket sleeve is crossing over.”
“yeah. get your bag out of the way while you’re at it.”

“so just leave it in the oven for about forty minutes,
just to let the sambal soak into the roast.
too short and not enough sambal.
too long and not enough roast.
but when you’ve got it, you’ve got it.
funny thing though.
the flavour will flip continuously.
it can confuse your taste buds,
but to some,
it’s a delicacy.”

“stay there.
yes.
stay…
don’t move…
okay.
now roll over…
good, good.
and…sit.”

“this is fun isn’t it?”
“yep, it sure gets the heart pumping.”
“I always feel so good afterwards.”
“yeah apparently it’s the endorphins.”
“hm. must be.”

“ooh that was a good one,
go on give it another whack.”
“I think it’s working,
I don’t see much anymore.”
“try scraping it.”
“hm not very effective,
the whacking seems to get more off.”

“how desperately do you want this?
“very very much I do.”
“well why do you want this then?”
“to get…experience?
yes, experience in the field.
…and to see what it’s like for myself, instead of only hearing it from others.
I guess I really want to be able to say that yes I have done this before.”
“how do you suppose you will achieve this?”
“through hard work, initiation, determination.
and hope.”
“what if it isn’t what you thought it would be?”
“well at least I would have made that judgement on my own.”

“oh, don’t you wish it could be?”
“I don’t know.”
“I wonder how things would have been.
would there have been laughter? Tears?”
“I don’t know.”
“haven’t you thought about it at all?”
“I don’t know.”
“haven’t you ever lay awake at night thinking about it?
and that being the only thing that can put you to sleep without fail?”
“I don’t know.”
“you know, sometimes I just wish I could read in between your phrase of ‘I don’t know’.”
“of course, all the time.”

“are you cold?”
“yes.”

< space >

2007-01-24T14:16:00.000Z

The same plot plays over and over again.
The same characters,
The same feeling.
Unbelievably vivid,
Touching all the senses.
Different situations created each time,
With the wonder of if it could ever really happen.
Unsure of what drives the curiosity,
But sure of the deep desire.
A desire that is made stronger by the tiny unintentional benign buzzes.
Comforting.
Relaxing.
Wishing.
Hopeless?
Never.
There’s always treasure in that quilted blanket,
Belief is all that is needed for the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow
And yet it’s so difficult.
Quickly now,
Pile some sand on.
Surely that's the only way.
Giddy up please.

Tasty

2007-01-15T21:43:00.000Z

term started off a bit dodgy but i think it's starting to pick up. work is piling on but if i put my mind to it and my back into it..i'm sure it'll be fine.haha i hope. things are a lot more relaxed now ever since i finished a complete draft of my bilge coursework.woohoo!!but i still have to make edits.
we just sat for our critical thinking AS paper today. !!! is all i can say. the whole time during the paper i was looking at the end time for people who have 20 mins extra time so that completely threw me off and i ended up not being able to finish the paper. so in a few words: i.am.screwed. whats even more annoying is that if i dont get an A i'll have to retake the paper in the summer, along with my other AS's.sigh.
nip tuck has turned dark. =D

short and sweet.

unpredictable

2007-01-08T15:58:00.000Z

what should i say?
what can i say?
what would make things better?
this is happening too often.
things happen so quickly.
i used to wonder how when i was a kid,
how i would be laughing.
and suddenly i would burst into tears the next second because of something silly.
emotions, events, time, along with everything else, come and go so fast.
and sometimes we think it's unfair that we had to lose it.
but surely,
we just never see the big picture.
and sure we'd be upset
sure we'd be angry.
and i know it's easy for me to say:
have faith.
trust.
believe.
but sometimes thats all you can really do.
right?

reminiscing

2007-01-04T17:42:00.000Z

The Scientist by Coldplay

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are.
I had to find you, tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.

Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions,
Oh lets go back to the start.
Running in circles, Comin' up Tails
Heads on a science apart.

Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.
Oh take me back to the start.

I was just guessin' at numbers and figures,
Pulling your puzzles apart.
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart.

And tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start.
Runnin' in circles, Chasin' up Tails
Comin' back as we are

Nobody said it was easy,
Oh it's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard.
I'm goin' back to the start.

2007-01-01T14:55:00.000Z

the bubbly will be the death of me.

telepathy

2006-12-30T19:05:00.000Z

haven't you ever wondered what if you knew what people were thinking?
how people felt.
wouldn't everything be so much simpler?
no more guessing.
no more confusion.
no more uncertainty.
no more fear.
no more worry.

but where's the fun in that right?

i wish

2006-12-23T15:46:00.000Z

excitement.
impulse.
adventure.
buzz.
drama.
intoxication.
passion.
thrill.
exhilaration.
elation.
happiness.

things that i wish for under my christmas tree.

colourblind

2006-12-17T17:28:00.000Z

Colorblind by Counting Crows

I am colorblind
Coffee black and egg white
Pull me out from inside
I am ready

I am taffy stuck and tongue tied
Stutter shook and uptight
Pull me out from inside
I am ready
I am fine

I am covered in skin
No one gets to come in
Pull me out from inside
I am folded and unfolded and unfolding

I am colorblind
Coffee black and egg white
Pull me out from inside
I am ready
I am fine

wasted

2006-12-16T09:22:00.000Z

wasted opportunity
-singular
wasted opportunities
-plural
time separates the two.
time separates more than just words.
but can it do the opposite?

harsh reality

2006-12-15T10:16:00.000Z

the more and more i hope
the less and less possible it gets
things just aren't the way it seems.

yes
no
maybe
i don't know

Life is a test, and I confess I like this mess I've made so far.

why?

2006-12-14T18:25:00.000Z

the lightbulb is flickering.
better fix it or trash it.
its not fair to spoil your eyes because of it.
so target the problem and amend it.
or else this light bulb will be put out of its misery.
whether you like it or not.

2006-12-09T10:40:00.000Z

term is ending and rooms are emptying.
i just took down all my pictures on my boards and my room is utterly empty.and cold.
i still havent finished my bilge coursework plan.
i just cant bring myself to finish it off and hand it in.
and i hate ranting about it all the time.
so i shall stop.
well.once i hand it in.
last few days for me would be a huge attempt to finish as much holiday prep as possible so i dont have to rush it on the last few days of hols.
that would be a huge nightmare.
but it's not too bad.i havent got tooo much.
thank goodness i don't have to do any essays.
well besides my actual coursework.
i have so many faults that i can easily tear apart my whole experiment.
this could possibly be a good thing.
or so they say.
oh well.
less than a week!

?

2006-12-09T10:31:00.000Z

what happened?
i must have missed something.
things have changed.
maybe i dozed off for a second too long.
maybe my mind drifted for a moment more than it was supposed to.
maybe things should go back to how it used to be.
but perhaps i did want it to go on.
perhaps too much hope was injected.
perhaps what you think isn't what it is.
maybe maybe maybe.
perhaps perhaps perhaps.
life is a doozy.

2006-11-27T19:32:00.000Z

did my bilge coursework today.
i got results that were completely contradictory to my prediction.
my experiment sucks. there are so many faults to pick at.
i have no idea what i'm doing and it's killing me.
i hate not knowing things and being lost.
bilge is definitely going to be the death of me.
i'm just so scared that i won't do well.

i know i've been saying this over and over again but i honestly cannot wait for christmas.
i need to get out of this perpetual cycle.
it's just work work work work work work everyday.
i can properly say that i'm stressed.
but what's really pathetic is that i finished all my prep over the weekend so i'm ahead by quite a bit but i have no idea what to do with myself now. it's like once prep is taken away i have nothing else to do.hahahhaa.
time has just been passing sooooo slowly.
i've done nothing the whole weekend.
i've just been watching films and sleeping.

i've been listening to the calling all night.
i've just rediscovered how amazing their music is.
their songs all sound the same but they're still gooood.
because i listen to my ipod so much i'm actually listening to some of the songs i would never listen to if i had the choice. so i sort of found new songs! haha.

i just heard that pantene [which is pronounced as pan-ten here, yeah i know...strange] is bad for your hair. it apparently coats your hair with something bad.sigh.and here i thought i found my fav shampoo. it just smells sooo good. i have to go shampoo shopping once i finish my stock of panteeeeeen.

i will now go look for something else to do cos someone needs to do some work.

2006-11-18T22:44:00.000Z

well i'm finally online!!!hahaha and it's only 645 in the morning there.haha so of course i expected to see many many many pple online at this time. im in london now,been out since thurs night.mum came out to see me.so its been rocking.haha

mum met my teachers on thurs.and she didnt believe that they only had sweet things to say bout me.pfft.hahhaa.geee.then we went to eat chinese food.it was alright i guess.on friday we had an awesome lunch.then in the evening we watched THE best musical EVER.we watched BILLY ELLIOT THE MUSICAL.really amazing.hahha i bought the soundtrack.the kid is soooo talented.i really loved it.ermm then today we just shopped.phew.crazy.had chinese again tonight at the SAME restaurant.hahha.but it was all cool i guess.

im going back to school tmr night.and my mums gonna take me out on monday night to go eat some thai near school.hm i never really know what to say when i blog.so bear with me as i ramble on and on and on and on.

gosh i honestly dont know what to say.well except im sorry for wasting your time reading this rank entry.hahaha.ill try better next time!! >.<

let the rain fall down

2006-11-15T18:06:00.000Z

i've got that song in my head, haha. nice hilary duff.
hahaha i'm still slipping in nice in my sentences, nostalgia i think.
one more day to short leave!! hoosha.
mum's in london now and she's taking me to see billy elliot the musical and eat chinese food hahaha can't get any better than that!!
but even though it's short leave the teachers wouldnt think for the tiniest moment to not give us any prep... no sireee.
i'm gonna have to rush through as much as possible so that i can actually relax during short leave.
i need this break soooo much.
the constant pressure and work is just driving me cwazy.

christmas is coming!!!!! i am sooo psyched! i simply adore christmas.everything's just so jolly. =]
i'm bummed i'm not getting a regular input of post anymore. =(
haha but i admit it's partly my fault since i keep putting off replying...well not intentionally. >.<

i have a bilge coursework materials list due in tmr but i dont really know what im gonna do... dilemma muchhhh.
but i have an idea that i can fall back on, considering no one wants to do the same one.but my idea isn't too stupid, nor is it too difficult so *cross fingers*

here we go again

2006-11-02T21:26:00.000Z

it has suddenly become fuhhhh-reeeeezing. every day it's a wonder how my fingers manage to stay on. you know what i realised? i dont know what to write here without repeating exactly what i'm going to say in my snail mail.... geee what a horrible dilemma.hahaha so i think i shall be brief here and be more detailed in my snail mail so as to increase the appeal of writing to me. =D big hint much. i shall now ramble bout pointless things.

this week has been absolutely horrendous.every day i stay up finishing prep that's due in immediately the next day.haha part of the reason why i have such a back log is cos i didnt do any work over long leave.hahha too much fun maybe. >.<>

we didnt have football today. =( well we went out and waited for 20 mins only to find out it MAY start at the time we decided to leave. and im assuming that there actually was football so i feel unfit. but im planning on going to exercise over the weekend so im trying to make myself feel better to get through the week.haha

what's really strange is for the past few days i've been waking up an hour plus earlier than i should.that's definitely not right.it's not like i've been sleeping longer either.queer. hopefully it doesnt happen for the third time.

what was really cool was one night when we had a study sesh in the booter, which i had never seen before, i discovered that we actually have a fooseball table in the house!! how awesome is that right? i will give it a go one day, hopefully soon. >.<

tags:

kat: yes i was waiting for you. but it's alright no harm no foul.hahhaha yes write to me soooon!!!

oeij: hahaha yes yes it was rather eventful wouldn't you say?i just really really wish i had more time. but soon i will be back again with a whole month to do whatever.eat whatever too. =]

shubha: ugh annoying thing.the one time i call you and you're ASLEEP. you could have at least CALLED BACK you know. whole point of caller id!!! goshhhhh.anyway i'm back in england already.haha busy doodoo.

millions

2006-10-27T19:26:00.000+01:00

i wish i could split myself into millions of pieces.
one week is definitely not enough.
what with jet lag causing me to lose my whole mornings.
but i admit that i have terribly neglected sooo many pple-too many pple.
i wish i had more hours in a day and more days in a week.
i wish i coud slow time down and yet speed time up.
there are just too many things to do.
all i know is i haven't spent enough time with ANYONE.

i'm so sorry for neglecting all of you.
but i had tons of fun when we did hang out.
thanks so much for making my week awesome.
and eventful.
i'll try to do better in six weeks.
i'll try not to step on too many pple's toes.
and i'm gonna make up for all my stompings.
if you'll only let me.

but my question still remains the same: where is everyone?

ALL THE BEST TO ALL SEC FOURS.
keep it up.
remember all the trainings.
make use of the stamina you've built up.
make a sprint for the finish line.
it's so close.
believe in yourself.
have faith that you're not alone.
remember that you always have someone watching over you,
keeping you from falling.
please don't stress too much.
you'll do brilliantly. =]

something to blog about.

2006-10-24T16:45:00.000+01:00

i really was immensely surprised.hahhaa HENCE the ruddy WOW shirt.hahaha.it was fun and interesting.heee so sorry it wasnt as big a rave as you all hoped it to be but it was still nice. special thanks to jen and my mum.hahahha

i think i had an overdose of seemingly sad shows.definitely an overdose of gore and violence.we watched till 6am then stone-watched and stone-guitar heroed then i fell asleep bout 9 ish?hahahha then we had to wake up cos lunch had to be cooked.not bad lunch if i do say so myself.ahhaha.well apart from the weird pasta.swensens was fun too.hahha.tasted goooooood. interesting dmc after that as well.hahaha. therefore i conclude that today was PRETTY eventful. =]

i dont think i've adjusted to the time change just yet.cos im still pretty awake now.hahaha.staying up all night probably didnt help either. >.<

close your eyes and take the leap.

2006-10-23T12:29:00.000+01:00

where is everyone??

guess who?

2006-10-23T12:12:00.000+01:00

mmhmmmmm i'm baaaaccckkkk. got back yesterday and i went to school today. wish it was alot more eventful but OH WELL.hmph. nice to see you all anyway.oo and thanks for all the birthday wishes!! =] cant believe im so old already.

and what makes things worse is that there is no sun for me to get the tan i wanted!!! =( mmph.haha okay enough complaining. i cant wait for dinner!!!hahaha nothing special.im just hungry.and i just realised that i dont really have much to say. hopefully i can blog bout something soon.

three more days

2006-10-18T22:12:00.000+01:00

i just finished writing up my bilge experiment and it literally took me 2 and a half hours.ughhh.i have no idea where all that time went!! =( and ive been waiting for half an hour just for the internet to get going.plus what makes it worse is that i realised that i sound so incredibly spastic in all my posts.honestly.
hmm well i heard that haze is pretty bad back there...i don't remember haze ever really being that big an issue for years.strange it suddenly pops up again.and i heard that you all got your YEARBOOKS already??!!! mmph. i want a yearbook...they're planning on having one here for the first time for the whole school.but can you believe that a petition is already going round to not have it!i like yearbooks!hahah no matter how unglam the pics are..they're good memories. =]
3 more days of a mad rush of all my prep which are very brilliantly all due on the last few days of school.but i'm actually properly excited bout going back!! i tell you...you all better partaye hard for this one week.hahahha.i really have to relax.i haven't had any time to stone at alllll.
till then!!! mwah!

2006-10-08T14:03:00.000+01:00

woooop!!i simply cannOt wait for half term.it's gonna be sooooo awesomeeee.wellllll some exams are still going on back there so ALL THE BEST AND DONT GIVE UP.=]
kay im typing this while other pple are watching pirates of the caribbean extras.haha.i should be doing prep.but.ohhh welll.i simply ADORE not doing ANY essay subjects!!it's immensely so much better.prep gets finished alot alot quicker. TIME TO REPLY TAGSSSSSS.

kani: hahaha i haven't been able to get on msn almost the whole time i've been in school cept for one lucky night.hahaha but i'll be back SOON.yay.

ashley: hello hello!!

dim: HI DIM.

zy: AYE. DONT CURSE ME KAY.ahhahah.im gonna go to the gym later after i finish my prep. hopefully the sports centre doesnt close before. >.<

jiayi:what upppppppp.hahah i bet you miss my annoying presence right! =D

oeij:hahahha yup! i got your mail! =] aNd i wrote back.so you should be getting it pretty soon. but after exams i think.

cow: i remember running off and hiding in the girls toilet cos we wanted to skip lessons.and how that guy could never pronounce your name right.hahahha.ahhh the days when we were YOUNG AND CARELESS AND STUPID.well stupid enough to stick our arms up that machine to TRY to steal the prizes.hahahhaha.HI LARRY UHS.

2006-10-04T16:53:00.000+01:00

ive been feeling soooooo exhausted today.mmph.and i think im getting into the groove of drinking tea.so when i know i need to stay awake i have tea with alot of sugar. =] and i dont think ive been very healthy since i came.eating alot and not exercising as much as i wish i could.hm.im gonna drop the idea of me picking up extra tennis coaching to my mum so i have another sport to say i do.ugh i need to exercise!!!

i think im in the state of neutralness where i dont hate it here but yet i havent started to love it.there are definitely some things i love and hate but i think they cancel each other out more or less.i just wish i can get into the state of positivity[or whatever] where i wont CONSTANTLY think about things back home.[yes i do think about home alottttt]

well ive had my FIRST msn experience since i came last monday.wooh.vuhry nice to catch up with the pple i talked to. =] oskaes[wooh havent been using that at all] i gotta go for my YOUNG ENTERPRISE meeting.hahahha its where you set up your own company and sell stuff.pretty fun.
mwah

gotta be quick

2006-09-16T15:14:00.000+01:00

hello again!!
ok i gotta hurry cos someone else wants to use the com.mmph.
so the days have become a lotttt better.i was super emo like a week ago.wow i cant believe it's only been a week and a half since i started school.it seriously feels longer.
school has been pretty alright.they give quite ALOT of prep.mmhmm.not the little that i expected.but i've done most of what we're doing now so it's a nice refresher course while i settle in. =]
thank you thank you for all those who wrote to me and sent me email and tagged. =] i appreciate it a lOt. i hope i receive all your mail though. >.<
you know i would be online AT THIS MOMENT if the msn worked.crud man.i planned it JUST right so that itll be an ideal time to go on. but nooooo the msn just would not cooperate.hahha.whatever.
to everyone who just said hi: HELLO THANKS FOR TAGGING. =]
wanxian: awwwww i feel MISSED.yay.hang in there.make more pple crazy so that they can be my very poor substitute cos NO ONE CAN REPLACE MY CRAZINESS RIGHT???? =] hahaha
oeij:yuppp EXPECT SOMETHING.

okay i should go.ill keep trying to go online.and just a QUICK AND SUBTLE reminder:
i'll be back the day after my birthday.

INTERNET

2006-09-10T18:13:00.000+01:00

hello!! i finally got on to internet.
so things are going ok but with a bit of iffyness as well if you know what i mean..ugh
i mean things are nice here but it's still a bit strange.

i just cannot wait to COME HOME.
mmph
it hasnt even been a week for petes sake.

PLEASE TAG.I CANT GET MSN.THANK YOU. =]
OH EVEN MORE IMPORTANT.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE WRITE ME!!! AND TAG ME THAT YOU DID SEND A LETTER SO I CAN GET MY HOPES UP.
THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

eeeps

2006-09-05T13:20:00.000+01:00

im moving in today.
and it's scary.
i don't know what to expect.
i don't know who to expect.
chow's giving me pretty good advice.
hahha thanks chow.
it will be okay.
i think.
i hope.

my goodness. i don't know whether i should laugh or cry.
and yes.i have internet cos i'm still in the hotel room. still dunno if i get any in boarding.
but even if i do. you can still write me!!hahhaa make me happy.
and even if i don't i got my music.my laptop.my series.my novels.my letters.and stuff.

i'm lathargic.

"save me from drowning in the sea"
"i can make it through the rain."

I MISS YOU.

2006-09-04T19:54:00.000+01:00

i thought i could handle it.
i thought maybe it wouldn't be too bad.
but then it hit me.
after reading all your letters. [i hadn't even gone through 5]
it hit me that i won't see any of you for SIX WEEKS. [yes.i tried to fake my strength by saying "IT'S ONLY SIX WEEKS.IT'S NOT THAT LONG."
but it is.
and the fact that i may not have internet access at the times when you all are on.
it's tough!

i'm really really going to miss you all.like seriously.i'm so happy so many of you came down to send me off.hahah even if i didn't go in at the time i told you all.and i feel so honoured you all skipped dinner with your families to have a late/rushed dinner just to send me off.thank you for all your letters and calls and messages and LOVE.i love you all so much.i've been emo since i started reading your letters and looking at all the lovely presents you gave.

it honestly was an amazing sight to see ALL of you together.i'm so sorry i couldn't spend enough time with all of you.but i really appreciated your presence.i had so much to say to you all but i couldn't get everything out properly.so i decided to post it on my NEW blog.

i thank God for blessing me with all of you.my life has been so much better cos of all of your encouragement and joy."you are the sunshine in my life"

please please don't forget me.hahha please?

ok enough mush.sooooo i may not have internet access.[it is NOT a convent.haha.i think.] so if you love me enough to wanna write to me OLD SKOOL. here's my address:

[ooo just had a security talk and it hit me hard it is NOT good to put it up on the WORLD WIDE WEB.so hopefully nothing bad happens and most of you have it already.so if you can't remember or need it just ask around or ask me when i get back. >.< geeez it's really veryveryveryvery scary stuff.so don't mess.but thanks again to all who did manage to write!! =D ] (091006)

well it's 8ish at night here and 3ish in the morn there.
tmr i move in.
and im scared.
but i should have more faith right?
sigh.
i think im just pretty home sick.
pretty pathetic aye.
less than 24 hrs in uk and im homesick.
eep i really hope it'll be great.
i'll try to update.